PSYCHOLOGY
TESTS
Personality
tests:
In
the 16Personalities test, my results said that I am “the meditator (INFP-T)”.A
personality trait that surprised me about that was the “idealistic/optimism”
trait. I am fairly pessimistic as I always set myself up for
disappointments/failures. Therefore, when I read that I am “optimistic” and I “seek
and value harmony”, I was in disbelief. Some personality traits I can agree
with are that I am difficult to get to know and that I take things personally.
I like to be mysterious and I like to have a lot of flair. I do not tell others
much about me as I also have a feeling of protectiveness over me if not many
people know details about my life. Also, since I have very low self-esteem, I believe
that every snarky/depreciating comment is made towards me. I would start
arguments for no other reason than feeling “personally attacked”. Another trait
that is accurate is my love for literature and the written expression. “The meditators”
are often poetic and misunderstood like me. Another thing that surprised me is
the accuracy of the “friendships”. It is stated that INFPs distance themselves
from friends so they can re-center on their emotions. I have done that many
times. I always start to deteriorate and instead of letting other people seeing
me crumble, I take a few days off from my responsibilities and patch myself up.
This test was fairly accurate.
Based on the result from the SAPA
project 5 personality report, most of the traits match accordingly with my
personality. Traits such as extraversion, openness, conscientiousness and
cognition align with my personality. However, the results from traits such as
agreeableness, integrity, and emotional stability are somewhat shocking to me.
I scored 5 out of 9 on agreeableness, meaning I am somewhat disagreeable than
others as I have less concern with others’ needs than my own. I believe this is
slightly untrue as I tend to agree with others on most matters and their needs
and feelings are a concern to me. I am very compassionate when it comes to my
family and friends therefore, instead of being intolerant of others’
shortcomings, I would be extremely tolerant. As for integrity, I scored 5 out
of 9, which shows that I may occasionally break the rules, and I do not feel a
strong need for power, status or luxury. More than often, I abide by the rules
as I fear the consequences and I like to do the right thing. When it comes to
status or power, I tend to seek these because it shows that I have control over
my life and having those traits provide myself the ability to seek the things I
want to do in my life. Finally, I was shocked with the emotional stability
score, which was 4 out of 9. This shows that I am emotionally reactive as I
respond to both negative and positive situational cues most often than other
people. The results states that I may respond emotionally to events than other
people as I may be more sensitive, emotional and prone to feelings that are
upsetting such as anxiety and guilt. I believe this is completely untrue. When
it comes to emotions, I tend to hide them rather than to be emotionally
reactive. When compared to other people, I react a lot less to
situations/events even if it is important to me. Overall, the results match with
my personality, however, some one the traits results were a bit surprising to
me.
Mental Health Assessment:
Before
I started the mental health assessment, I was feeling fairly anxious and
scared. I did not want to know my results and I did not want to share them
either. However, I have to. I scored 100 on the major depressive disorder,
bipolar disorder and generalized anxiety disorder. These results did not shock
me at all. I know what kind of a person I am and I understand my flaws very
well. I know that I try to live my life to the fullest. However, I cannot due
to these overwhelming feelings of fear and anxiety always leeching on to me. I also
already know that I am not a generally happy person. I do not believe that I am
not fulfilling a purpose in this life as I am just a tiny speck in this vast universe
that is inevitably doomed. I also scored a 90 on the panic attacks and 91 on
the panic disorder. These results also do not surprise me. I do experience many
panic attacks (at least a couple a week). Life is very hard for me to handle as
it is fairly overwhelming and my brain and body cannot handle it. I always
believe that I am falling into a deep, dark abyss and I can’t grasp anything
but I also can’t let go. That means I’m stuck. Moreover, I scored 57 on the
manic episodes and 53 on the PTSD. These results do not mean much to me and I intend
to not make them into a big deal. I’m not sure what to conclude about this test
as I know such tests are not always accurate.
Psychopath/Sociopath
tests:
As I was taking the Levenson self-report
psychopathy test, I was concerned about the results of the test. Although
knowing beforehand that I may not be a psychopath, I still experienced anxiety
while anticipating for the results. The test included many questions regarding
the moral behavior, which were easy to answer. My score on primary psychopathy
was 2.1 out of 5 and 2.6 out of 5 on secondary psychopathy. Primary psychopathy
is lack of empathy for other people and tolerance for antisocial orientation. Secondary
psychopathy is the antisocial aspects such as rule breaking and a lack of
effort towards socially rewarded situations. Overall, the results were in
accordance with my expectations; however, the scores could have been a little
lower on both primary and secondary psychopathy.
For
my sociopath (anti-personality disorder) test, I scored 58.3%. That means that I
am unlikely to have the anti-personality disorder. As I was answering the
questions for this test, I was scared. The questions seemed absurd to me. There
were statements such as “I have committed acts that are ground for arrest” and “I
am indifferent to the feelings of those who I hurt”. Although I did not agree
with both statements, I started to think about the people who might have agreed
with them. I cannot imagine myself breaking the law or pretending that a person
has no emotions as they are both cruel and awful. I was also terrified as I somewhat
believed that I may have the anti-personality disorder. I do tend to manipulate
people at times. However, this result did not shock me. I think that my result
was in accordance to my age group. I believe that my results are
understandable.
